Getting down to our best versions of ourselves is as much about eliminating toxic people, places, and things as it is adding positivity. This is the lesson I’m choosing to take from recent events. I, too, could remain mired in the pain of past mistakes and past hurts and betrayals, and it’s taken quite a while to get to this point, but I absolutely refuse now to hold onto the darkness if I can possibly avoid it. The hours, days, years I’ve spent focusing on the inconsequential is time I can never recoup, but I don’t need to. Recent events have forced me to face uncomfortable truths about some of the people in my world, people I mistook for friends who made it quite painfully known that they’ve cared only about certain aspects of me. I could go over the past 16+ years of perceived friendship with a fine-toothed comb, could think of all the confidences I shared and kept, all the generosity I’ve displayed, all the hurt this should equal, but I am actively choosing to not do that. It’s not worth it, when the world is full of beautiful, amazing, and genuine people who would never dream of treating me — or anyone — this way. Like all of you.
Speaking of all of you … deep breath … I need lots and lots of positive energy sent my way. I have a medical test tomorrow, the results of which have a slim chance of being horrible. I know some of you who know me in three-dimensions will wonder why I’ve not told you about this, and the short answer is that I’ve put it out of my mind in order to function over the past couple of weeks. I’d like to say that it will all be fine but just to be sure, please think good thoughts. Thank you.
That was weird – someone I referenced not by name many posts ago just accidentally called me. I’ve not heard from this person in years and there was no message left. My initial thoughts on seeing the name pop up were simultaneously that they had a psychic vision about my tomorrow and that they were issuing a cease and desist regarding my post.
Tomorrow night I get to go see live music with two of my favorite people and one new friend. Music is playing a big role in my life again, and I’m very grateful for this.
Gravitate toward the light, my dears. Life is precious. Be good to yourselves.